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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo:

AFdA - BRB! Cya in Dec ^^  

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Epitaph

Journal Entry: Tue May 6, 2008, 8:29 AM
  • Mood: Relief
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All my parents could do for me was to give me an education. It's high time I used their gift wisely.

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I'm going away for awhile. No this is not an emo desparate publicity-stunt - I'm well and truly aware you all must be sick to death of them by this stage. But I felt it right to inform you all. If you want to know more, read on. If not, shake your heads in disgust and walk on by. =D

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I joined dA on the 9th of August, last year, my birthday. I've been hooked on it ever since. The magnificent art to be found here, the wonderful people behind them and enjoying them with me, the forum for expressing my own works - I loved it all. And of course that's the reason I've decided to retire.

I had a long talk with a good friend today, about school. He's been on dA before me and left his account in early April, and he's been the one to teach me most of what I know about drawing. Usually he's been the one distracting me, lulling me into my hobbies and enjoyments. So I suppose it came as a bit of a shock when he told me that it was time to grow up and worry about the future.

My mum had had this talk with me many times before but it never sank in. This time, surprisingly, it did. And thank God for that.

See ever since I joined here I've been split between work and play, to the point that recently I've had no motivation to do anything work-related. I knew I had a writing problem in being slow but instead of trying to remedy it myself I sat back and let my teachers apply me for special consideration as I doodled away on my tablet day after day. Last week that application came back as denied. It didn't yet sink in how much work I needed to do to pull through without the extra provisions. Now it might just have.

In school these past months I've been kidding myself, and now it's come back to haunt me.

Music has been the kindest - at least I can still play my trumpet, but not nearly as well as the VCE standard, and I lack the technical knowledge the theory part requires.

Lit has been most comfortable with a lovely teacher who doesn't shove in my face the fact that I've only ever handed in 4 of the 14-or-so essays I should have churned out by this stage. But her disappointment shows.

History has been a constant game of hide-and-seek and roulette with the teacher, praying that he doesn't suddenly get the urge to check books and find out I've done virtually nil of the required notes.

And English. English I've had the best teacher ever, the most encouraging and hopeful of me. She's had the heart to give me extra time to finish my assessment so that I'd get even half the score I though I deserved. But yesterday I had another assessment. I wrote half a page in two periods. I would be kidding myself if I blamed it all on my disability and not my preparation, or lack thereof.

Instead I've been dreaming, all this time, that this escape of mine was all that mattered. And even within that escape, I've been pushed into a regular crawl that takes away from my future without being totally enjoyable as well.

I've fallen into a routine of drawing for others in a chore-like fashion when it should be unprovoked and heartfelt. I've turned to drawing fan-art that, although is always of the series I love, I count upon their familiarity rather than my skill to impress. Only with my newest Shula picture did I find true happiness.

Thus I heard my friend's appeal and agreed. I would give up my addiction for the rest of my school life, before it was too late.

It's almost a relief for me as well as a sacrifice, to be able to not worry about splitting time to labour over a friend's next birthday picture or clear out a huge pile of updates when I need to catch up on notes on the October Manifesto and the like. When such dA-related stuff becomes purely enjoyable rather than a drag and a wound to other areas is when I'll finally be whole here.

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I guess I've been facading all this time, pretending to be in control and happy. I guess I was happy to be here, but there's always been a part of me crying on the inside. I never stopped to listen, never thought I could return to the way I was nearly 6 years ago, when I was in Year 7 and cared for nothing except doing my best. Now when it really matters, I've done nothing but lie back and scorn in its face. Time to finally fix that. I hope that after today, returning to a 3-hour-a-day homework regime and continuing with my abstinence from computer games, I'll be able to find what limited success I can still grasp.

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I'm not leaving forever. XD

Just until it's all over. Then I can return and do my artwork fully instead of rushing it and suffering at school in consequence.

I want to thank all of you for making it such a joy here though. To all my friends and watchers, I feel ever grateful. Take care and enjoy yourselves in the meantime!

Auf Wiedersehen.
~ Until we meet again.~

- D.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: sixteen
  • Current Residence: lost inside my head
  • Interests: drawing, writing, daydreaming...
  • Favourite movie: Howl's Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke
  • Favourite band or musician: Linkin Park
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything I can muse to =)
  • Favourite artist: There are so many! But as far as anime artists go, Misters Hirai, Harada and Azuma
  • Favourite poet or writer: William Shakespeare and Eoin Colfer respectively
  • Favourite style or digital art: Hisashi Hirai's style
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano 3rd gen... when I can bloody get it to work D:
  • Favourite game: Twilight Princess
  • Favourite gaming platform: GameCube
  • Tools of the Trade: Pacer,Grapphire 4 Tablet, Photoshop CS2, and my own messy mind

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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: May 3, 2008, 6:09:51 AM
You've been a member for almost three years and got no deviations, and the decent stuff you do have are all in scraps? Maybe you could practise more (sorry if you do but your gallery doesn't exactly show it ;P - and if you are doing more, you shouldn't be afraid... or lazy, either way... to show what you got!) It's what every artist will tell you, no matter how good they are.

Heck I'm not that much better than you, and two years ago I was just starting and was terrible. ^^; But practice helps a lot - as I've said, keep at it!

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~Afa2005:iconAfa2005: May 2, 2008, 7:55:20 AM
meh.. i was doing a search 'Hirai Hisashi'
then browsed around... :D

well i dun think i can give any advice.. ur better than me in clothing and folds.... and coloring... argh... developing so slowly...

aw well.. -_-
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 27, 2008, 7:53:13 AM
Waugh that's weird - I remember I was going to drop you a line before my browser screwed itself and I subsequently forgot, but you've got to me first! =P How'd you even find me?

Yeah, Hirai is way awesome but people have their tastes and many fail to see his brilliance for some reason. Meh. We can still just be us in the meantime - his popularity's bound to grow. But with the high status of GSD and his other hits and yet little return fandom for him... makes you wonder how long it'll take. -_-

I will keep up my training, hahah thanks for that. I won't stop until my characters are as near to his standard as they can be. You keep at it too, ta for dropping by. =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~Afa2005:iconAfa2005: Apr 26, 2008, 11:59:47 AM
yeah! a Hisashi Hirai fan :D
ya know there isnt as much HH fans out there as there should be :P

keep up the training (Y)
*neko-rulz:iconneko-rulz: Apr 26, 2008, 11:13:56 AM
Neee thank you so much, you were in my sis DA too ^^

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"-At Last! my arm is complete again!-"
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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 26, 2008, 7:31:11 AM
You're more than welcome any time, of course. =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
*neko-rulz:iconneko-rulz: Apr 25, 2008, 5:30:20 PM
Thank you so much for your words :hug:

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"-At Last! my arm is complete again!-"
Kanpai cosplay: [link]
=RLPT07IDN:iconRLPT07IDN: Apr 15, 2008, 11:38:10 PM
^_^ Your Welcome!^_^
yes you did and that's cool thank you lol.xo
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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 15, 2008, 5:27:21 AM
Thanks, hey to you too! And thankyou much for the faves, glad you like them. ^^ I'm sure I thanked you for the watch before too, but I can't seem to find the comment on your page... oh well, never mind. Thanks regardless! =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
=RLPT07IDN:iconRLPT07IDN: Apr 13, 2008, 4:56:06 PM Mood: Noble
^_^ Just came by to say hello!
& FAV.2
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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 12, 2008, 9:15:25 AM
Lol you're welcome! ^^ A watch be it really, but I'll definitely be faving some of your neat works as soon as I delve into it in future. =D Thanks once again for the comp invite also!

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 12, 2008, 9:13:07 AM
You're most welcome, ^^ thankyou, for your compliment, and for gracing the world with your beautiful art in the first place!

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
*neko-rulz:iconneko-rulz: Apr 12, 2008, 8:39:52 AM
AWWWW thank you so much for the fave!! :glomp:

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"-At Last! my arm is complete again!-"
Kanpai cosplay: [link]
*hibikio:iconhibikio: Apr 12, 2008, 4:27:25 AM
Thank you for the :+fav: <3 You have a lovely gallery aswell.

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~supersonic24:iconsupersonic24: Apr 10, 2008, 12:31:11 PM
never mind, it wasnt u, sorry. u have a similar avatar to his

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instead of fighting eachother, we should be fighting for eachother.
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 10, 2008, 11:42:31 AM
You're very welcome, it's well deserving of one! =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~Ratiazu:iconRatiazu: Apr 10, 2008, 7:23:33 AM
Thank you so musch for the fave~
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 9, 2008, 10:02:07 PM
Not ringing many bells... I'll note you back about it. =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~supersonic24:iconsupersonic24: Apr 8, 2008, 5:15:18 PM
the ones for the ready to brawl one. ive searched and searched, but never found anything like that.

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instead of fighting eachother, we should be fighting for eachother.
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Apr 8, 2008, 5:56:11 AM
Which ones did you mean?

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~supersonic24:iconsupersonic24: Apr 6, 2008, 4:20:48 PM
can i ask u here u got those brawl sprites?

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instead of fighting eachother, we should be fighting for eachother.
~Nowera:iconNowera: Mar 20, 2008, 8:06:39 AM
:D Thanks! :hug:

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~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Mar 15, 2008, 9:41:35 PM
Your Missmands more than deserves it, so you're most welcome. =)

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<
~Nowera:iconNowera: Mar 15, 2008, 11:13:07 AM
Wow, thank you for the fav! :hug: :D

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Pointy ears will rule the world! <^_^>
~Zucreelo:iconZucreelo: Mar 13, 2008, 6:22:02 AM
Thanks, I'm always glad when a piece of mine can do so much for someone else, so thankyou very much! =3 I've checked your new wallpapers too, but still I probably prefer the older ones - Meer, and that chibi Asuka that I've never seen the likes of before, heheh.

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Vivir con miedo, es como vivir a medias.
A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.

- An old Spanish proverb, made famous by Fran in Baz Luhrmann's Strictly Ballroom.
One that I preach, but fear to practise. >,<